I am a 34 year old mother pf 3, two girls and a boy. Last year on September 17th my oldest daughter mysteriously started throwing up blood after school while waiting for me to pick her up. When I arrived she had already thrown up 4 pints of blood and the ambulance was on its way. I couldnt believe what i saw when i entered the doorway to the restroom were she was, my knees went weak and i couldnt breathe. All I could do was cry and think what do i do,this is my baby im suppose to keep her from pain and harm yet i couldnt help her. As she was throwing up she looked up at me and said "Its ok Mom I love you" how funny her trying to calm me instead of me calming her. Well in the ambulance she told me she was sorry so we all figured it was something she must have taken at school,seeing she was 16 and alot of kids were experimenting with pills at her school at the time. She arrived at one hospital and was air lifted to another all the while i was so lost and confused not knowing weather or not to be mad cause we didnt know what caused her to become so extremly ill. After being the an entire day, they had pumped her stomach and did a scope to find it was indeed NOT caused from anything she had taken, so again we were back at square one, no explaination. Finally after many x-rays and cat-scans she was diagnosed with avm(tiny tangled blood vessels) which were located in her lungs and pulmanary hypertension
all to which there are no cures. My daughter was in a medically induced comma so she still didnt know what exactly was going on. The doctors were really at a loss when they heard there was never any signs, she was in every sport possible and even was a cliff jumper. Well she under went many surgeries and was slowly being brought out of sedation when she pulled her own beathing tube. From that point on she has showed us just how strong she is. She went from a teenager that was normal to a teenager with a disability who can not even go swimming due to her iv. oh yes i forgot to mention that part the only thing keeping her alive is an iv that has a continuous flow of the medication she needs. Every day she makes new medicine to replace the one from the day before. She is an amazingly strong little girl or should i say young woman she just turned 17 on the 28th,cause no matter what she wakes up with a smile to light up the room everyday. I wish I could be that strong, I have felt like screaming many days cause ive lost my job and apartment due to having to miss so much work at the begining of all this. I can now go to work with out as many interuptions but no where is hiring, well no where close within walking distance, i have no car cause when my ex left he took it then totaled it. They say god doesnt give us what we cant handle but i think he was confused when he delt me this hand cause im loosing it and really trying not to since i have two other children that need me too. basically not having a job or a place of our own, and a daughter that is sick for ever, i dont know were to turn . you would think i would be use to the struggle seeing how i raised my brothers and sister but im not. any suggestions which way to go from here????
